Normally in this space I speak to the week’s reading. Today I would like to write about something that I have been thinking about for some time.

From the outset I would like to say that I am not looking for any sympathy from you. I will be just stating the facts as they have occurred.

We all have had challenges in our lives which have left a stain on our psyche. The kind of challenge which has had an effect on our soul and/or personality.

For decades I was under chronic stressors that had a negative effect on me. I found myself overwhelmed by these stresses which lead to being off work for a total of 14 months. I am a survivor of childhood physical abuse and sexual abuse during my adolescence. I have seen many doctors over the years to find ways to reduce the psychological distress associated with the above abuses. I spent many years feeling anger, guilt/responsibility, lacking focus and concentration. I feel my sense of self-worth was affected negatively by these abuses. Traces of that negative self-worth still remain.

I was diagnosed with anxiety, major depression, post-traumatic stress disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder. This diagnosis spoke to my perfectionistic tendencies and impacted my interpersonal relationships.

Thankfully I have found my way back to our Lord. My belief and trust in Him have been a tremendous help in my recovery. I believe that I wouldn’t be here without His constant presence in my life.

I greatly appreciate you listening to my story. God Bless.

Deacon Tom

Please note: If you or someone you know have been through similar experience, please know there is help available. One place to start with is your family doctor.